If I say that I’m sad, I scared that I will shed my tears
Why don’t I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh
But people ask me why I’m crying
Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again
What’s wrong with me, why I do this repeatedly ?
Can’t differentiate between bottles of alcohol and meals
So far in my life, I never felt pain this excruciating
Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper
In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go
I long for you, I hold on to my cellphone and let it go
My eyes are filling up with tears again, this separation between us..
I’m without heart, I don’t have a heart
So I wouldn’t be feeling pain
Everyday I talk to myself, and put myself under a spell
But even so, I keep shedding my tears
If I say that I’m in pain, I scared that I will really be in pain
If I say that I’m sad, I scared that I will shed my tears
Why don’t I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh
But people ask me why I’m crying
When I’m laughing like this
After you left, I think I became a fool
I can’t do, I can’t do anything, so I die
I shove myself into a corner and live
Without you there’s nothing left to do
A day is too long, way too long
But what was I busy with, to make you feel so lonely
When you wanted to go shopping, going out with my friend
Was so easy, but why couldn’t I do the same with you ?
I always regretted being so slow
I don’t know if I’m really stupid, but I still can’t let go of our bond
If I say that I’m in pain, I scared that I will really be in pain
If I say that I’m sad, I scared that I will shed my tears
Why don’t I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh
But people ask me why I’m crying
When I’m laughing like this
(let’s smile) like couples in drama
(let’s smile) like the title of your blog
(let’s smile) happy like in my post
I’m without heart, I can’t be in pain
I’m without heart, I can’t be in pain
Let’s just laugh, just laugh, just laugh
Please, please let’s stop crying now…
